I read a post on Facebook this morning and it has been at the back of my mind since. The post speaks about sensitivity of others and that how the overequipment of this ability can become a burden; while the underequipment of this ability might indirectly result in unintentional "hurt".
I can't help but look back at my life after reading this post. Did the author make out human behaviour to be a mere black or white or that humans are just an insensitive bunch? The debate goes on as to whether women are more sensitive creatives than their male counterparts, or that a thread of insensitivity exists in both?
As i progress with age, i have begun to lose the ability to grasp sensitivity. I realise that humans are so varied and that even with friends whom u think are close, a wrong move can result in one being upset when quite frankly, i always thought that friends can say anything under the sun and not hold a grudge against one another. It's beginning to get stressful to always think of what/ how to position statements, when so every often that's what's happening at work (or rather, at my work). I also begin to realise that I have gradually lost the ability to open up and confide. I tend to take deep breathes and psychologically condition myself to manage tough issues when the road gets bumpy. I also begin to learn not to rely on anyone in life to solve problems/ issues but do-it-yourself. I don't know since when i began to evolve to such a nature but really, i just wanna be myself - to have a good laugh and enjoy freedom of speech without worrying that things that i say will turn around and bite me in the butt. This to me, is the simplest pleasure.
All said, i am glad that i have a very close bunch of friends who we are able to say anything under the sun to one another and that we are sure no grudges will be kept. I am looking forward to the therapeutic baking session i am gonna have this weekend.
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