The lack of maternal instinct?

I took my virgin experience in touching a pregnant belly today and quite franky, the experience left me daunted & kinda put me off.

This "belly" belongs to a colleague of mine who's gonna pop anytime in the next 3 weeks. The active little one was moving alot within her, causing mummy to be pukey all day. She offered to have us "feel" the little one and warned us that there are split feelings abt the baby's movement. A couple of colleagues of mine had their go 1st & were delighted to feel the active one moving within so when it was my turn to "feel" the belly, i freaked out when the little one moved!!! It was pretty scary to feel something moving inside a human being & yes, while it's a life within, i can't help but feel yucky! The experience was rather gross and i yelped when i felt the baby. Of course, the troop teased me at my lack of maternal instincts but i just can't get over the scary feeling of touching the pregnant belly.

The moment is still lingering in me & while making my way to the carpark this evening, i began to think that i'll never look at a pregnant belly the same way again... the feeling of the delicate life moving within has freaked me out, clearly confirming that i am sooo not ready for this next phase of life.