Solitude

It just struck me today that i hardly spent time with myself. I guess the only time i spent with myself is when i turn in every night. I always thought that with KL not by my side, i'd have more time to myself. Strangely, it's not happening. At work, we fight battles & fires. The politics, power & hunger for visibility often makes me pull my hair & wonder why everyone's so engrossed with the "battle for recognition". Then there's a mad rush to get to NTU 2x a week. Intense interaction with colleagues, biz associates, advertising folks, classmates etc has taken up so much of my time that i hardly spent time with myself. I took a break at lunch today to take a walk to Plaza Sing. I visited my favourite stores & took time to browse the bookstore too. I instantly felt so much better! I reckon it's becoz i took time to be alone, rather than lunching with a bunch of colleagues that engage in "office talk" - wondering who's-doing-what & what's-happening-when. Grrr, u need a break from such bitching too.

Maybe this's a good training ground for me when KL & i move to HK. I am happy that things worked out the way we had planned for - studies, work in the heart of the financial centre in Asia & most importantly, KL had a chance to be a step closer to his dreams. Well, having your partner in Investment Banking isn't exactly that exciting to me. On 1 hand, money will not be an issue coz Investment Banking pays freakingly well. We slog hard now & can reap the fruits of our labour later in life but on the other hand, phew, i am gonna see so little of him. I suppose i am thankful for my independent nature & for the fact that i need my own arena of space. I have the faith that all will work out well. It'll i am sure.